Well not much has happened since last I wrote here. I had a balance test done, came back normal. They've refered me to neurology. I'm in a great deal of pain right now as I think my bottom right wisdom tooth is infected again, it feels like the entire right side of my jaw, up into my right ear and temple as well as down the right side of my neck are on fire with throbbing hot pain. Hot fluids and the pain meds and tranquilers I'm on for the fibromyalgia help with the pain some, but relief has been short lived when it occurs.
I have at least been doing more exercising here and there, even going for short walks without my cane now, though my hip always aches afterwards and I still walk with a limp. Using the cane though my hip does just fine getting around, though I'm not going to be waliking in any marathons anytime soon.
I met someone really wonderful online recently, and have enjoyed talking to him quite a bit. We're so alike it boggles the mind, I truly feel we are two sides to the same coin. I haven't felt much like being online for a little over a week now though, so I've missed talking to him as well as everyone else for a while now. I have been getting calls from numbers I don't recognize (and thusly didn't want to just call them and say "Do you call here for me?") and got a voice mail that I couldn't make out to figure out who had called. I haven't really felt like talking on the phone either so I guess it was for the best. :|
Hopefully if this pain doesn't subside by monday I'll get to the clinic doctor at parkland and at least get antibiotics to fix the problem for the time being, although it still won't fix the problem in the long term. I guess we just do what we can with what options we can find. *shrugs*
Having just watched part of Return of the Living Dead 2, and having recently watched Dawn of the Dead (which btw was a REALLY good zombie flick) I just had to do this little quiz. Who knew tacos had such power? Why me of course! :D
Well just a quick update, I'm trying to do so much online at the moment I don't want to lose my path. :) I went to the ENT yesterday, and actually got some decent news! The hearing in my right ear is normal! YaY! My left ear though, where most of the pain is, is below normal, but not bad enough that I have to continue to worry about it for now. They are going to be doing a balance test on me next, which involves blowing air in my ears and watching the reactions of my eyes. An odd way of doing it I suppose, but they say the eyes have a predictable response to these things, and if the response isn't what it should be there is a problem within the ear's balance system. I go in for that test Sept 23rd, and to see the ENT Sept 30th. (It apparently takes time to "interpret" the data from this test) When I was tested previously, ages ago, I was told I had excellent hearing, well above average. I can definitely live with the level it is now though! I'm so happy! :) *does a happy dance* This news is such a relief that it has catapulted me into a far better mood than I was in! They still don't know what to do about the tone-sound in my ears though, hopefully they'll figure out something to make it less annoying at least.
I'm sure that there's more I should be writing about, but I think that was the most pressing thing. It certainly was one of the things weighing heavily upon my mind. I may write more tonight, I'm still debating on covering one subject matter in here.
I don't know how many people have posted this where, but I feel this is worth mentioning here. I've been to this place many times and have never failed to enjoy myself.
The Grapevine Bar Labor Day Cancer Fundraiser
Sun. Sept. 5th
As always, from 1 pm - 2 am we will have $2 ANYTHING and FREE BAR-B-QUE but at this party we will also be raising money to help one of our own.
Ronny’s sister has terminal liver cancer and has less than a year to live. She is a single mom who will leave behind three children. This benefit is to raise money for her family and to fulfill her last wish to see the mountains.
All of the sales from the outside bar and all of the employee’s tips for the night will be donated to Deanna’s Fund and we will be asking for help from you. If you can’t make it Sunday, we can take your donations before or after the party. A benevolent account has been set up in Deanna’s name at Washington Mutual and more information about this is available at the bar.
We will also be selling raffle tickets for $5 to win a $500 bar tab and there will be a silent auction.
Call us at (214)522-8466 or stop by 3902 Maple Ave., Dallas TX for more information or you can reply to this post.
Please invite all your friends, it's a great cause! Feel free to pass this along to anyone who might be interested.
In addition I ask for anyone who reads this to keep this family in your thoughts, hopes, and prayers. I'm a firm believer in the power of positive thought, and I ask you to join me in the hope that things will work out for the best for her and her family.
Well let's see here, I have my computer running XP now, and have a working CD-RW drive (thanks to Daren) and all 3 of my HDs show up and are accessible! YaY! Never did get the floppy drive to work, but now I don't really need it so it's all good. :)
I feel better than I have in quite some time, but I still don't feel all that great. However I'm in a much better mood and can see myself getting better so life is good! :) I can even walk with a slight limp without my cane, but walking with it is so much easier, and walking long distances without it still hurts like hell after a while. The thing on my wrist has reduced in size greatly, though lots of movement or heavy lifting with it still hurts since it's not gone entirely. I do have to see the ENT for testing and stuff on August 24th at 9:30 am, and although I'd really like to know for sure what's going on with my hearing and how much has gone the way of the dodo at the same time I'm kind of dreading it as well. The old saying ignorance is bliss comes to mind. *sighs* Well I've never been one to sit in ignorance, so off to that appointment I shall go.
I miss seeing everyone so very much and I hope that soon I'll start making it out to places here and there. I know I need to, both to get out of the house and move around more as well as to save my sanity.
I realized something about myself though, part of the reason I haven't been out more lately isn't about my body but more about an issue that has been bugging the hell out of me for a while now. One of my closest and dearest friends, Liz, no longer wishes to have me in her life at all. I would have, and truthfully still would, give my life to save hers. She knows me better than many people do, yet she now wants nothing to do with me. It has affected me more than I was admitting. If someone who knew me so well, who was such a close and dear friend, could suddenly cut me out of her life without rhyme or reason, what's to say others in my life won't do the same? I guess I've always had abandonment issues, and perhaps this was the straw that broke the camel's back so to speak. I have not been staying in touch with the people I cherish as much as I would like to because of this issue, and I really need to get over it. Others have said it was her issue not mine that caused this rift between us, and that it is her loss, not mine. That doesn't make the whole in my heart any less painful. I love her like a sister, and I always will. I just won't contact her again until she wants me to, but I will still always wish the best for her and hope that perhaps someday she will want to find me. If not I guess we'll just see each other after this life concludes for us both. I don't know how to stop loving people, I suppose that's as good a thing as it is bad though. I find it so easy to love people, and so very hard to hate them. I guess that really is something to be happy about since hatred can consume a soul, whereas love can set one free. I guess I'll stop this self-checking babbling now.